Question to America
by Hind Kabawat

June 1985, I celebrated my 21st birthday away from my home in Damascus, a student in America. My first boyfriend took me to the Statue of Liberty in
New York. "This is America." he whispered in my ear.

America to me then was a place of freedom, where human rights and liberty were valued and where the democracy that I could not find in my homeland was  a reality. Later, America also became the home of my godchildren, good friends, and my best friend, an American rabbi. America was Marc Twain,  jazz and blues, and Broadway. As I grew older it was also where I took my children for vacations to Disney World and where I had my school reunion.

March 2003. I have always been a pacifist, so of course I was against the  war in Iraq. But after the fall of Hussein, I believed that there was a possibility of a democratic Iraq. I dreamed that a successful and  self-sufficient democracy in Iraq would herald the coming of democracy to other parts of the Arab world. Even when the situation in Iraq began to deteriorate I made excuses for America, telling my friends that of course  there was suffering involved in political change.

March 14, 2005. When millions in Beirut were calling for Lebanese independence and relations between Syria and Lebanon were at their most strained, I stood with my Lebanese friends and supported their right to demand the kind of freedom that they wanted. I was proud that my American and western friends were supporting such political change from within, and I hoped it was the beginning of a real shift in the politics of the region.

It is now July 2006, and my Lebanon is being destroyed. Women and children are dying, and my American friends have forgotten that little country that they thought was so important such a short time ago. The Paris of the Middle East is being burned to the ground while the Arab nations and America both watch from a distance and do nothing. My American friends do not even condemn the enormous and disproportionate attack that killed so many  children in Qana.

I went to a march in Toronto this past week to ask for a cease-fire and an end to the killing of civilians in Lebanon, Israel, and Palestine. As I walked with so many other, I thought of my first boyfriend whispering in my ear as we stared at the Statue of Liberty, and I realized that America right now is not the same country that I have such fond memories of. It is no longer the place were speaking up about what you believe is the most important thing, and it is not a place where human life is valued above all other things. I am watching now as religious fanaticism and anti-American sentiments grow stranger and stronger in the face of America's criminal indifference. That indifference is not only killing the Lebanese, it is  killing the hopes of secular and moderate Arabs in the region, who now see  our calls for democracy met with pictures of Qana. If I could, I would ask  America if this is really who she wants to be.

Hind Aboud Kabawat
August 2, 2006
Toronto, Ontario